Mixed emotions.
Saturday, May 18, 2013 @ 3:17 AM
I know this is a very common word for a title but meh! Who cares? Whose even reading?
I bet almost no one but random strangers .
I wish too much sometimes.
I'm gonna type out what happen these few days, you can skip if you one, the last part will be me venting and talk crap. (:
Wednesday, schooling and it was pretty fucked up hahaha.
Ended around 2pm, coz of make up lesson.
Library with Kenny until 6 sia LOL, boring sleep, vids, music. Tada.
Ate dinner at Astons and homed.
There was one part where Kenny was sleeping, he scared himself and push his phone away,
and it dropped one ground LOL.
Kenny was making weird noises during his sleep too.. HMMMMM.
Thursday was pretty fucked up and super boring.
First,I woke up for the results for all the test I've done in SGH. TIRED -_-
I didn't had any disease or whatsoever, sian, should have then can die. -_-
Third, I went in for 2-3mins and pain freaking $48 for consultation? -_-
Fourth, I rushed to school for lesson, 2-6pm, boring and tired, fml. -_-
Fifth, got emotional over little things that I knew won't happen. -_-
Sixth, I found out I lost my ear piece. The only one left. -_-
Seven, I have to rush back home and finish my project. -_-
7Wonders of fuckingness, I just want to lie down and die, stress like fuck.
Okay end of thursday.
Today I went school lol duh, but lessons start at 8pm, I was freaking late, damn.
Oh well, did the extra practice for autocad, to construct another similar building.
Even though I was late, I managed to complete it while some never even do finish, yay.
Then blah blah, writoral did 2 lessons in a go coz next week is vesak day.
Blah, end at 1+, went to library to find others and eat lunch together.
Bought vegetarian(I'm guai) and fries, no seats sia.
Waited for people to leave then go seat down and eat. I kept looking at the people thou hehe =3=
Go back library and do work and slack, I watch vids and slept.. and kept disturbing Kenny because I was bored!
Left arond 4.30PM due to work at 6PM.
Homed, bathed and so tired, lie down on bed awhile then go work liao.
Today the day went past very fast and like lesser people, so lesser sales bah.
Ended and lepak with colleages, homed around 1am++.
AREA OF VENTINGESS ( AVOID AT ALL COSTS)
Why do people take their close ones for granted?
One day you can be super apologetic, the other day you act like nothing happened...
What am I even worth of? I'd understand if you can throw it my face and let me cry or even hate it all out.
I can feel better after that then having this kind of pain I'm suffering now.
I'm don't want to feel unwanted, but why does people keep shoving me around?
Is it because I'm not worth it? If it is I just wanna say, fucked up world.
I live in type of world with these kind of people that doesn't give a fuck.
I should rot in hell and get over with it, I'm be a study freak and ignore every fucking person.
If that's what you even wanted.
Sorry for ranting and making no sense, maybe because I'm resisting myself to type out everything, about how feel.. so yeah. Too many restrictions I have to go my other blog and type it out...
About the emotional part.. It was actually asking Kenny to wait for me after school.. but...
I asked him many times beforehand, in the end Renard ask him go home with him...
He asked me then I was like.. "ok nvm"
Not really angry but disappointed(myself)? What can I do.. they are best friends afterall. I'm just someone who happens to know both of them, yay. Or do I?
I know I get a super emotional over this kind of stuff.. before that I always asked Kenny to wait for me..
But Thursday I end at 6, he end at 2 so it's like kinda far apart, anyone would have left.
He always left before, but that day he was actually waiting.. I think?
Oh maybe not, waiting for someone else bah, but at least he didn't gave me complete no.
For the first time for a thursday, something changed better, and not to mention THIS thursday which is more fml-ish.
Then it has to come down like this, I don't know, is it weird to feel like this?
Every thursday I come and go like no one noticed.. unwanted
But It's better this way I guess.
Afterall, I'm a nobody ^^v
