#71 Truth hurts.
Thursday, April 11, 2013 @ 12:40 AM
So today, woke up and felt sick and tired for no reason.. even though I slept quite long 7-8hours.
Went to work, eye hurt like hell.
No choice continue, few hours later the pain numb liao, but a bit red and sore.
Decided to do drinks instead of POS, scare customer with my eye and sleepiness.
During my break, I decided to do my prep work instead of resting &eating coz I was thinking abt my friends.
Even if skip my break, still late half and hour, busy busy busy.
After that the same gang came, had dinner at Pastamania and played arcade, usual.
HSH after that.
Bathe, game, audi.
Should sleep early today, tmr need wake up early see doctor.
I guess I know why I sick, Raidah told me that Monday I was cycling under rain and sun.
No wonder lah, sigh pie, but no one can see.
I wonder why, should I care so much? It hurts so much, my heart.
I don't know about you, but even if it's just friend, an action, a word, can hurt so much.
Should I? Should I not? Why? So many questions in my head.
Is it fun to you?
Am I nobody?
Why are you smiling?
Is this a joke?
Or every word I say is a joke?
No one saw my face, my feelings, my emotions, my sadness.
I'm all smiles and jokes, but deep down the frown is bigger and longer than the great wall of china.
My sickness, my hurt, my heart, suffering so much, but no one can see.
I lose my appetite, no one saw..
I cheering the an upset person, I'm actually talking about myself, no one saw.
Tears came down, hidden by yawns, no one saw.
But that's a part of life that I'll need to endure.
BUT is it so hard to hope that someone notice? Even that little bit.
And I thought I found my male/female closest friend.
But it only happen in movies, nothing is forever
Truth really hurts.
Nights.
